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Irrational, bizarre hatred of innocent details

Posted on October 15, 2011 at 06:36 PM.

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Like many of you on here I am a sports gamer and I tell people I like playing video games because they're fun but when I reflect on playing games I'm not sure how much "fun" I'm actually having. Like all gamers certain flaws, glitches, or oversights provoke my anger but this isn't about those things, this is about little details that aren't a big deal and DRIVE ME IRRATIONALLY INSANE for some reason.

Best example for me is NCAA Football 12. I love this game and certain flaws do bother me but one thing that bothers me to the point that I am literally espousing obscene language at the top of my lungs is the fact that it seems about 30-35% of my games begin with rain. At first it didnt' bother me at all until one game in Septemeber during the day it was overcast and rainy during an ASU game. I though that was dumb and for some reason after that I didn't just hate it when it rained (a detail that never really had much effect on the gameplay) it would provoke so much anger that I would refuse to play games in rain and would exit the game and restart. Usually that worked until one game I restarted it and it was raining again and I yelled several expletives and almost threw my controller, over freakin' rain in a video game.

Now before you start telling me I need to seek therapy for anger control management what you must understand is I'm a calm person. I taught high school math for 8 years, had great classroom discipline and never once did I ever yell at my class and I mean I NEVER yelled at my class. Occasionally I would get mad at students but while I raised my voice from time to time I never yelled, I've always been known for being so calm.

Another example is I have a buddy that loves NBA 2K11 but the one thing that causes him to twitch and arouse anger in him that would make you think the development team molested his girlfriend, the fact that you can't have black socks as an option in the game. This isn't some minor annoyance to him, he complains about it all the time with such intensity that I can see his hair going white from the hatred that issue inspires.

It made me feel a little better because I know my psychosis is shared but it left me with the question "Why do I keep saying I play video games for fun because I dont' know if I believe it?"